Back in the "Real" World!

All I can say is "Ahhhhhhhh!". What a faithful GOD I serve who provides so much for me, even when my heart is full of doubt! Seriously, HE has blown me away with the ways HE keeps providing. Don't get me wrong- I do not believe in a prosperity gospel- but that's why it blows me away so much! I don't deserve it, and all I need is HIM alone- yet HE provides all the little things I need in this life. Just when I reach that moment of I'm not going to make it- HE provides. Just when I think I won't be able to support myself financially HE gives. Bills don't pay themselves and I am crunched as I am in the process of looking for a job as I return back to school. What an amazing faithful GOD I serve who provides all that I need and more even in the midst of my doubting heart! Yet even if HE did not provide for me the things of this broken life I know I would have all that I need, because I have HIM- my BELOVED ABBA!

Oh, I suppose you want to hear about camp! I apologize (sort of, but not really-because it's who I am) for my giddy heart, and that the thought almost escaped me! In a nutshell camp was- well "sanctifying"! Seriously, I have become even more aware of my sin than I was before, and the process  was not an easy road. If you know me at all than you already know there were tears, and lots of them. After all I am 95% emotional and 5% (a generous ammount) rational. I am so thankful that the summer was a rocky road of sanctification- because it lead me to HIM more, and because of that I feel my heart is better prepared for the road that lies ahead....
Until next time!
Love always, Frances Hope

A Note from the Nook. (#2)

Well here I am again writting to update those who may be reading this. (Sorry for the brief and jumbled update- time is a precious thing). Camp is coming to an end with only a week and a half in the running. Two and a half months in and it seems like I have been here for years. The LORD has surely been stretching me to the max this summer. There has been much laughter, many tears, and many more memories as I have had the privilege to serve others. The realization that serving is a privilege did not come easy. I was reading Galatians when it hit me- GOD does NOT need to use me, but HE chooses to. HE is perfectly capable of doing things on HIS own, yet HE chooses to use sinful, emotional, messed up me! Serving HIM and being used by HIM is above what I deserve. I am ruined by sin and HE has chosen to redeem me for HIS service that HE might be glorified. Talk about a humbling knock upside the head. Yet I must be cautious for in becoming selfless- self righteousness can disguise itself and drag one downward. I know and feel the enemy working against me as I seek to serve the LORD. The road has been rocky, but as always GOD has been faithful.
Much love, Frances Hope

A Note from the Nook. (#1)

Here I am sitting in "my office" pondering upon the LORD's work eager to share what HE is doing with you. I will not deny that there have been tears and strife as the LORD has been shaping me the past 3(ish) weeks. HE has been humbling me that I might be a better servant to HIM and others, and it appears HIS choice tool is a chisel.  I must put others constantly before myself and living that out is much harder than simply knowing it. I have become more and more aware of my sin, yet it draws me back to grace. Sweet, steadfast, unceasing grace! The truth is I have failed. I have failed to love my brothers and sisters before myself. I have failed to be in the word. I have failed to be selfless. I have failed to be mindful. I have overall failed. I have wept for my shortcomings, and I have wept in gratitude of grace. I am so thankful to be serving a merciful GOD who has lead me so well. HE is my ABBA and I am constantly drawn back to HIS steadfast love (sometimes by force). Being on Program staff is not the same in the slightest way, because it literally means to put others before yourself. I am learning what it means to lead, and what it means to truly submit to authority. Both require the act of putting others needs and sometimes wants first. I am dwelling on the truth that JESUS came to serve and not to be served. I'm thankful that HE is compassionate and sympathetic. So if your wondering if HE is working- the answer is yes, and in more ways than you know.
Much love, Frances

Future Pending....

Well today is that day. The day I take my first step towards tomorrow, and leave behind all that defined yesterday. I jump from the cliffs of stability, from all that was good and comfortable into the depths of uncertainty. I'm excited and terrified in the same breath. I prayed and pondered and now through faith, and a little fear I am responding in obedience to the LORD's calling for me. I am leaving a job that I loved, with godly women who encouraged me and spoke truth unto my heart so often. Soon I will be leaving the home in which I have always known. I am running the path that is set before me, because I'm afraid to slow down or else I might turn back around. I am praying "dear ABBA I will obey you, I will trust you, and I will have faith that you will guide me... But help me to do all these things as I know due to sin nature I will fail." The waters of uncertainty of tomorrow suround me, and I choose through grace to surrender in it. Now all that I know is that HE holds my tomorrow, and all that I can see is that my future is pending.

Beautiful Surrenderence

  This past year has brought much adversity to my life. I will spare you from such a long list of trials, but I will tell you I regret none of it. For in adversity faith is strengthened, and courage developed. James 1 has been my go to in this season of my life. For I (completely and undoubtly by the LORD enabling grace) have been able to stand steadfast under trial. I have a reached a beautiful point of surrenderence that can only be experienced inwardly and in a state of worship. Though my shoulders are often weighed down with strife- my heart is light. It is lovely to be here. Beautiful, freeing surrenderence. The next chapter in my life is taking a big turn with many changes, but I have reached a point of trust in the LORD that frees my heavy heart- and I know, oh that I know this inward gift is from the LORD.

"Blessed is the man who perserveres under trial; for once he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the LORD has promised to those who love HIM." -James 1:12

Camp Marannook

I was sixteen when I first responded to the gospel and over the years GOD has used many tools to draw me closer to HIM- Marannook is one of the greatest. I was so priviliged to study HIS word like never before for 100 plus hours, and grow in intimacy with my HEAVENLY FATHER, my ABBA. It was the best summer I had ever committed to regarding the LORD's work in my life and the lives of children. Surely it was a sacrifice of abandoning any selfish desire to spend my time however I felt, but I do not regret it one bit! I know that many fear the commitment that it requires, and I understand. I feel I can speak on behalf of my entire training staff and say we all understand and none of us regret that we gave up our summer. On one hand I could talk about Marannook forever, and on the other there aren't enough words to describe such an experience. I remember reading Romans and just weeping tears of grief and joy simultaneously as I let the gospel saturate my heart. I vividly remember speaking to our mentor and bible teacher and repeating over and over "I don't deserve it, but I don't have to earn it" as I just felt defeated and uplifted upon pondering the beauty of the gospel. I wish that every college student who loves JESUS would attend camp Marannook so that they could see the special place that it is. I want to encourage any college students with a free summer of even a possible free summer to strongly consider camp. I promise you when you surrender to submitting your summer to the LORD in this way it is truly a blessing. Let me just put it this way- are you willing to sacrifice your summer for the ONE who sacrificed HIS life for you?

Leeching or Loving

Where do I even start? How about James Chapter one, because that seems to be the theme of my life right now. This season of my life has been a continuation of sanctifying trials back to back, and I don't always "consider it pure joy".  So often I get caught up in wanting to question GOD's motives for my suffering that I forget HE is shaping me to be "perfect and complete, lacking in nothing".  I am learning endurance on a level that I never would have dreamt of, and probably never would have asked for- thank the LORD it isn't up to me!

Endurance however is not the only thing I have been learning lately, but even also what it means to love. True, genuine, sacrificial love is something I find myself crawling back to and seeking my heart to extend to others. The old saying "love hurts" -well I think I'm starting to get it now. Love often means letting go, and it often brings heart ache. Yet when my heart hurts that's when I know I have loved, because nothing else could feel the same (I feel like I sound like the tin man). I prayed for discernment in love, and I truly feel the LORD is in the midst of answering that prayer. There is a difference between what I call "leeching" and loving. Leeching takes place- well when you are taking, while loving requires giving. Love gives and doesnt expect anything in return. Love often requires a hard truth to be spoken that can leave another in heartache as well. Love isn't always easy to give, and it isn't always easy to receive. Leeching benefits no one in the long run, but pleases many in the moment. Love often hurts in the moment, but benefits many in the long run. And that is why I choose to love....